오후 6:44
I have countless of thoughts. All of which can be summarized in just four words:
What is the point?
Right now is no question of whether or not there would be university classes. Or whether or not there is a supreme being categorized as ‘god’—none of those seem to be worth asking anymore. What is the point? That is the only question that matters in these moments.
I do not know how to find the answer. I do not know… anything. Right now are two things for sure: helplessness and hope… hopelessness. And of both, two kinds: internal and external.
The world is lost.
About two weeks ago, I was contemplating on how good things are. How, amidst the challenges, they are all surely figureouttable. I was thinking to myself, What could go wrong? It had seemed like whatever would happen, everything would always just be okay.
Now the world is in the midst of nothingness. Of pure and utter uncertainty. What does it mean for anything to Be?
From a journal entry, dated 17 March 2020