Ah, what now?
Flow state: this is the most pressing thought in my mind. But I feel as though the answer is closer than I think. That to sleep when I ought to sleep, wake up when I ought to wake up, walk for at least ten kilometers daily, and then get in my room and create until whenever—that all those are enough. I guess the earlier feeling that something is not quite right stems from the conditioning that I must ensure productivity at all times.
But exactly that: time. What does that mean, at all times?
Is it not that one simply ought to live in each moment? Whether living meant sleeping, walking, eating, or working does not matter more than the truth that is people ought to be, in whatever way it feels natural, in the present.
Hence, this ‘plan’ of sorts: Google Calendar may be helpful in keeping track of responsibilities, but always remember that less is more. Hence, the fewer events on the calendar, the more fully one can live them. In Google Calendar, I shall put schedules such as meetings, recordings, times with people, deadlines for submissions, and the like. Occasionally checking them, as often as I would my messages. I would trust that I would know and be called as to when it is the right moment to check. No more plans of when to do them, just as how I would not anymore plan when I would wake up, eat, or get to work.
The truth: faith.
Trust the self and the whole of life.
Journal entry, 27 October 2020